I Need Help

I can't keep going through this stuff everyday. All I keep thinking about is her. I love her so much and I know she loves me still. The time apart from her is killing me. I worry about her all the time and I don't know what to do. These pills don't take anything away. I thought after this much time I'd feel better about things but I don't. I feel bad when I talk to her, I feel like I'm pushing her even further away. We were so happy, things were so great, I love her, I will never be able to stop loving her, she's my everything. I have to get her back somehow, feelings this strong have to mean something. I need to figure out how to get her back without hurting her or myself anymore. I have to write this here because I feel like I can't talk to anybody, and I feel alone.

I can't go through this without trying to get it back. I feel like I've lost my everything.

Kyle